Then in an instance my life just stopped. I have toyed over revealing my illness to my readers for some time now. It is my fear that my words will no longer hold validation or that people may see me as a freak. But, doing so has only left me sad and broken hearted. Back in 2010 at the age of 20, an unknown illness took my ability to speak and eventually my ability to walk without a cane. Till this day my family and I still have no idea what happened to me and we struggle to make sense of this on a daily basis. My voice went from being clear to a stutter and then without warning I lost my ability to speak all together.
To make matters worse, I began to have problems walking and on a daily basis I am in pain and often times fight feelings of defeat. I mean to be honest if someone had told me at age 19 that I would become disabled I would have sarcastically replied “yeah right”. But the truth of life is that it is unpredictable. We can’t control certain aspects of our lives, but we can control how we respond to these situations. I want so desperately to become a photographer and makeup artist, but I know the odds are against me. But, instead of accepting defeat I choose to fight. Blogging has given me the ability to come out of my shell and explore my world in a different way.
We may not always get what we want or think we deserve out of life, but I’m sure that if each one of us would look deep inside of ourselves we would find the strength to look at our situation and determine how we can work around our obstacles to achieve our dreams. that’s just something that I thought of today and I’m hoping I could encourage maybe one person. I love and appreciate you all for reading my blog and it is my hope that I will be able to continue blogging for years to come!
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I am sorry you are having to go through what you are going through. I am glad you have felt comfortable enough to tell the blog world about it. I have Chronic Fatigue Sydrome and it took over 4 years to get diagnosed. It is very lonely when you are suffering and there is nothing your family or friends can do to help. I don't feel as lonely now I have the blog world as I am meeting so many people with the same and different conditions. Just knowing you aren't alone helps!
ReplyDeleteDanielle, I have just read your story and this touches my heart. You truely never know what tomorrow will bring. You are an inspiration to me and I am sure to many others. I have had serveral people in my life go through something very sudden that has now affected their whole life. My mother being one of these people. And while most days she is able to stay possitive there are those very down days too. She tells me how she thinks people look at her differently now and do not listen to things she says like they might have before. She asks me if I believe she has changed and I tell her that she is still and will always be the same loving person inside. It hurts my soul to see others treat people like this differently because in a bink of an eye it could be them in the same situation. You do not change who you are inside, the outside world just tends to view you differently. I hope that you are able to find out what is going on in your body to have caused this illness and that there is someone out there who can help you. Keep going strong and keep your head up!
ReplyDeletethank you and I'm sorry about your mother, but I'm happy to see that you remind her that she is still the same person. it really is difficult to be around others because people just look at you odd or they refuse to acknowledge you. i was so nervous to post this but thankfully i have received positive feedback. your comment really cheered me up! hopefully I'll have an answer soon but until then i just look for strength to stay positive.
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